When those obstacles get in your way, and you feel like you've failed, the two best things you can do is to be kind to yourself, and to not give up! Learn from those hiccups and move on. You are not defined by the mistakes you make. You are not a failure. You are human. I'm convincing myself here too.
The last week has been full of obstacles...crappy weather precluding me from exercising outdoors, working away from home, long and exhausting working days, and general laziness. I have tried, but probably not as hard as I could have. Excuses...that's it.
I only worked out twice last week, and I felt terrible about not doing more. I just didn't suck it up! I really missed walking around the local oval. These are the obstacles you face when you choose to exercise outdoors instead of a gym. The oval was so wet and soggy, there is no way I could have walked around it without injuring myself somehow. Instead, I popped on Mish's dvds and got to work. I'm still really self conscious when I'm exercising, and feel so uncoordinated! Hubby and the kids sat in the lounge room and watched me...I really need a space where I can be by myself. Me exercising is definitely not a spectator sport! lol. This week has been a bust too. I will be redeeming myself from tomorrow. Tomorrow I will exercise.
I have stuck to the meal plan 98% of the time, with just one extra snack last Saturday night, which was only 4 vita wheats and cheese; and a couples of meals while I was away for work...it could have been way worse. I've had cravings, and in the back of my mind I can hear Mish saying "it's just a craving...you don't really need it". So, I have a cup of tea or a glass of water and move one. I'm very proud of myself for not submitting to the mind games. I really don't need it. The thing that is keep me most honest with my food, is tracking the calories on My Fitness Pal. I fill in my 12wbt meals, and snacks straight away so that I know where I stand for the day. I really need to be sure that I'm eating my total 1200 calories, because not eating enough can be just as bad as eating too much!
The scales are showing that I'm losing weight...1.5kg last week. I weighed myself this morning though and I'm back up again. I don't know if I quite trust my scales, but soon I won't need to worry about them because I won last week's 12wbt inspiration board challenge!! My prize...a set of Tanita bathroom scales! I can't wait for them to arrive. It will be interesting to see how different they weigh. My worst case scenario would be that I'm heavier than I actually am. Not sure how I'd deal with that!
I'm starting to notice in my clothes that I'm losing weight. My work skirts are really loose around the waist, and I'm probably not far off having to buy new ones...what a shame! lol. Some of my work shirts are really baggy as well, and hanging a bit too low...obviously I've lost a bit of my bust, and some weight off my back. Speaking off...I've gone down a notch on my bras too. There's two really exciting things I've noticed though: 1) the new denim skirt which I couldn't even get the button close to the hole, now zips up completely!! and 2) my "knee high" boots that I had to scrunch around my ankle because my calves were too thick, I can now pull all the way up!! Talk about exciting times...it's the little changes that are making me the most happiest.
Next week I will be 4 weeks into the 12wbt and it will be time to remeasure myself. In the meantime, I'll continue following the nutrition plan, returning to exercising, and overcoming those obstacles!
